Love Lost

It was three years ago almost to the minute that I lost my precious, sweet Tommy. He had grown too ill to remain in his body, and I had to make the wrenching decision to let him go. I remember the ride to the vet when I kept telling him it would be okay, he wouldn't have to hurt anymore, he would soon be free. I remember the light going out of his eyes. I remember the gnawing, unforgiving, nearly all-consuming pain that gripped me for days afterward. I remember sitting out by his grave the next day, watching the sun rise and wondering how life could go on when my heart was shattering. I remember crying and crying and crying and thinking I'd never be able to stop.

Eventually, the constant tears abated, but the heartache remains, even three years later. I miss you, little Piglet. Thank you for your love and for the laughter you gave me. I know you're one of the brightest stars in the heavens because you were such a brilliant light on earth.

Goodbye, My Friend

(written by Karla Bonoff 1988)

Oh we never know where life will take us

I know it's just a ride on the wheel

And we never know when death will shake us

And we wonder how it will feel

So goodbye my friend

I know I'll never see you again

But the time together through all the years

Will take away these tears

It's okay now

Goodbye my friend

I've seen a lot things that make me crazy

And I guess I held on to you

We could've run away and left well maybe

But it wasn't time and we both knew

So goodbye my friend

I know I'll never see you again

But the love you gave me through all the years

Will take away these tears

I'm okay now

Goodbye my friend

Life's so fragile and love's so pure

We can't hold on but we try

We watch how quickly it disappears

And we never know why

But I'm okay now

Goodbye my friend

You can go now

Goodbye my friend